Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Learning....

"I'm thankful for my years spent with this family; for everything we shared, every chance we had to grow. I'll take the best of them and lead by their example; where ever I go. A friend told me to be honest with you, so here it goes. This isn't what I want, but I'll take the high road. Maybe it's because I look at everything as a lesson, or I don't want to walk around angry. Or maybe it's because I finally understand. There are things we don't want to happen, but have to accept; things we don't want to know, but have to learn, and people we can't live without, but have to let go."
-AJ Cook (JJ, Criminal Minds)

Took another Floor Barre class today. Learning SO much about my body and how to move properly. The tendonitis is really bad but I'm pushing forward. More Floor Barre daily, PT on Thursday and doctor on Monday...hoping that I will get some answers....hoping the tendonitis lessens and praying that I will be able to dance full out soon. I miss dance so much. :(

And just for fun:

‎"I've been really, really, really good this year so put on that red suit and make (the dance) appear cuz this Christmas cheer it just ain't the same without my (dancing)...They say it's unrealistic But I believe in you Saint Nick So grant this wish for me right quick Santa won't you come and make (me dance) this Christmas night..."

-Mariah Carey (From the song, Oh Santa!)

Monday, November 29, 2010

scars...

‎"It has been said that time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone."

-Rose Kennedy



Recounting the day it happened and the day of surgery....it may have happened in May, surgery in July....it's now the end of November and even though it feels like a lifetime ago...it feels like just yesterday. And so there is nothing to do except press ahead - more PT - more moving forward...as someone once told me, it's ok to look back...just don't stop there....like a pirouette....keep spotting ahead....keep turning....keep moving...


Things to ponder #48

Do one thing today that is a powerful demonstration of your willingness
and intention to live the life of your dreams.
-Marianne Williamson

Sunday, November 28, 2010

heal...heal....dance...dance....

"Courage is knowing what not to fear." - Plato

Another day full of PT and Floor Barre and ballet. I love my ballet teacher! I'm learning SOOOOO much about my body and how to work correctly. I can't wait to be able to grande plie and leap! The tendonitis totally sucks but ice and advil have become my new best friend and prized possession. So, it's been another successful day - another step closer to the dance. Time to breathe, let go and let the healing continue....

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Jazz Hands...

"SHOW A LITTLE MORE
SHOW A LITTLE LESS
ADD A LITTLE SMOKE
WELCOME TO BURLESQUE..."


Just another successful day of FLOOR BARRE and PT! Then it was off to see Burlesque....yes again...but this time with a group of 30 gay boys and us 3 chicks! There is absolutely nothing better than seeing Cher and Xtina with the gays....even the bed bugs were doing jazz hands! And now, it's time to ice and get ready for tomorrow....more floor barre/ballet! Another day done and another day closer to the dance....I can't wait!

Friday, November 26, 2010

Things to ponder #47

I am where I am because I believe in all possibilities. -Whoopi Goldberg

Things to ponder #46

"Never approach a performance the same way you did before. That's like waking up and living the same day over and over."

you haven't seen the last of me!

So on Wednesday I saw the movie, Burlesque, and it was SO good! You have to go see it! There's a song called, "You Haven't Seen The Last Of Me" and it is my new anthem! Because you know what, the world hasn't seen the last of me! I might be broken right now, but I AM FAR FROM OVER! Today I went to DNA and took an awesome Floor Barre class and then raced up to Steps for another Floor Barre class...and this weekend is full of PT and Floor Barre classes. I am learning so much about my body and the proper way to move and I'm loving every second of it! So even though I've been brought down to my knees....I'll be back....back on my feet!

Feeling broken
Barely holding on
But just there's something so strong
Somewhere inside me.
And I am down, but I'll get up again.
Don't count me out just yet

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed right past the point of breaking,
But I can take it.
I'll be back -
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me.
You haven't seen the last of me.

They can
Say that
I won't stay around
I gonna stand my ground
You're not gonna stop me.
You don't know me ,you don't know who I am.
Don't count me out so fast

I've been brought down to my knees
And I've been pushed right past the point of breaking,
But I can take it.
I'll be back -
Back on my feet
This is far from over
You haven't seen the last of me.

There will be no better
This is not the end
I'm better now
And I'll be standing on top again.
Times are hard but
I was built tough.
I'm gonna show you all what I'm made of.

I've been brought down to my knees
I've been pushed right past the point of breaking,
But I can take it.
I'll be back -
Back on my feet
This is far from over

I AM FAR FROM OVER

You haven't seen the last of me.

No, no, I'm going nowhere
I'm staying right here
Oh, no you won't see my fear
I'm not kidding around
Can't stop me.
Can't stop me
You haven't sseen the last of me
Oh, no -
You haven't seen the last of me.
You haven't seen the last of me.

-Cher-
(from the movie Burlesque)

Thursday, November 25, 2010

thankful

you. allison case who gave me this idea. dance. teachers. heroes. inspirations. dancing. acting. singing. jk. nyc. jkdc. law and order svu. broadway. criminal minds. steps. angels in heaven. rock of ages. butterflies. breathing. stages. quotes. pictures. life coaches. blankie. lambie. coffee. hair ties. socks. ice. purple. gymnastics. circus arts. laughter. tears. volunteering. helping. giving. hoodies. fela. next to normal. dvr. living. learning. making mistakes. realigning. meetings. life. american idiot. ipod. songs. writing. reading. love. puppies. horses. mariah. miranda. famous people. movies. one life to live. abc. ruby. lola. maisey. contacts. quotes.surrender. twitter friends. love. living. xiana. mail. deep breaths....

love. musicians. actors. creators. anyone who creates no matter what that is. feelings. enemies. hard situations. kind words. hurtful words. everyones whole health and being. the universe. the cosmos. the stars. the sun and moon. photos. books. my expanding mind. ego. awakenings. synchronicity and coincidences. recalling. forgetting. change. fear. joy. understanding. not understanding anything. asking why. and how. and what next. and then letting go of the questions. alive. alive. alive. life. lessons. not making plans. blogs. the unknown. fear. fear. fear. so much fear. so you think you can dance. garageband. unexpected letters. 2nd chances. 4th chances. creating something. letting it go. deeep breathsssss.... "its amazing how you love..." i am still learning but you all have taught me so much. i love you all. kindness must spread. love love love.

Thankful for SO many people places and things....

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Thankful...




I AM GRATEFUL THAT 4 MONTHS POST OP I CAN DO THIS


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FILLED WITH SO MUCH LOVE AND JOY AND HOPE....

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

just another day....

<---haha! this was taken about a month and a half after surgery. yes yes i know....even injured my leg is still up in the air...

So today is day 126 post op and once again I went to FLOOR BARRE and JK WARMUP and ended the day with more PT and ice. Every day brings me one more day closer to the dance....though I wish it wasn't taking so long. But I'm in the end of the race. I'm almost at the finish line and I can't wait. In the meantime, I try to stay focused on the positive. This injury has made me stop and start from scratch and I'm becoming a better dancer because of it. I'm learning so much about my body and the proper way to move. I'm learning how to stand.

Don't get me wrong....the fear is always there, trying to etch its way in but I can't let it. I don't have time to live in fear. I only have time to live in the moment and keep moving forward.

Never give up hope. Know that you are loved.
-Deepak Chopra

RIP to one of my inspirations....

Zena Rommett, Ballet Dancer Who Developed Floor-Barre, Dies at 90

Camille Rommett

Zena Rommett teaching at Steps studio in Manhattan in 2000.



Zena Rommett, a ballet dancer and teacher who developed Floor-Barre, an influential training method promoting bodily alignment for both dancers and nondancers, and whose students included Tommy Tune, Patrick Swayze and Judith Jamison, died on Nov. 10 in Manhattan, where she lived. She was 90.

Camille Rommett

Zena Rommett teaching in 2000.

The cause was cancer, said her daughter Camille Mouquinho Rommett.

Unlike traditional ballet barre exercises, which require students to stand upright holding a barre attached to a wall, Ms. Rommett’s Floor-Barre begins with students stretched on the floor and proceeds with gentle exercises to refine bodily placement, strengthen joints, increase vitality and help rehabilitate injuries without the pressure of gravity or the tendency toward rigidity that sometimes accompanies traditional standing-barre exercises. As she said in a 2008 interview in Dance magazine, “Many dancers don’t know how to stand correctly.”

Ms. Rommett attracted notable students from ballet, modern dance and musical theater, including Melissa Hayden and Lar Lubovitch. She and the teachers she trained also worked with skaters and other athletes, and in the Dance interview she recommended Floor-Barre for children, saying, “My technique gives children a strong foundation for unmannered dancing.”

Angelina Buttignol, known as Zena, was born on May 19, 1920, in Orsago, near Treviso, Italy, and came to America in 1925 with her mother. They settled in Elmsford, N.Y., to which her father, who eventually owned his own brick factory, had immigrated two years before.

Persuading her parents that she wanted to dance, she studied with leading teachers of the time, among them Anatole Vilzak, Ludmilla Schollar, Elisabeth Anderson-Ivantzova and Chester Hale, and made her Broadway debut in 1944 in “Seven Lively Arts,” a revue produced by Billy Rose with major ballet numbers choreographed by Anton Dolin, including the premiere of Stravinsky’s “Scènes de Ballet.”

She also danced on Broadway in “Song of Norway,” choreographed by George Balanchine, and “Paint Your Wagon,” choreographed by Agnes de Mille.

When her attention turned to pedagogy, she was noticed by Robert Joffrey, who in 1965 invited her to teach at his American Ballet Center. She opened her own school in 1968 and in recent years was associated with the Steps studio on Broadway, where she taught as recently as three months ago.

She was not the only teacher of the time to explore floor-based training: the Russian-born, Paris-based teacher Boris Kniaseff taught his “barre par terre,” a method primarily associated with ballet dancers, whereas Ms. Rommett remained interested in the widest application of Floor-Barre principles.

Although she was married to Alexis Nicoli Romanovich, an artist, who died in 1968, Joffrey gave her the professional name Rommett, a surname some other family members have kept.

In addition to her daughter Camille, of Manhattan, survivors include another daughter, Melissa Romanovich, of Manhattan; a sister, Lilias Buttignol Jones, of Scipio, N.Y.; two grandsons; and a great-granddaughter.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

124 days later

Day 124 post op. The past week went like this:

tuesday - FLOOR BARRE, JOYCE KING WARMUP
wednesday - FLOOR BARRE
thursday - FLOOR BARRE, JOYCE KING WARMUP
sunday - FLOOR BARRE

not to mention all the PT and floor barre done at home....i can't wait to be 100% and able to dance again! I'm already planning out all the classes and privates that will begin in January! Come on LiL Knee!

“Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever.” -Lance Armstrong

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Friday, November 19, 2010

Breathe...

It's been another amazing week of FLOOR BARRE and JOYCE KING WARMUP! I can feel the dance coming back...slowly but surely! And now it's time to: 'Breathe. Let go, let go, let go. Let everything go.'- Ratziel Bander


Each day brings me one day closer to The Dance! LiL Knee is doing quite well minus the tendonitis which is NO fun...but I gotta just keep pressing forward and moving ahead one day at a time. There are ups and downs and twists and turns but it's all part of the roller coaster of life...last night I dreamed I was on stage...I can't wait for that to be a reality!

"Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around."
-Leo F. Buscaglia-

That is totally true. How do I know? Because I just chatted online with one of my broadway idols and it meant the world to me. I'm so blessed to have amazing people in my life - inspirational people who keep me going every single day...

keep plugging away...
I'm very proud of you baby!!!
you are very special to me
xoxo-Maisey

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Things to ponder #44

We all know fear. But passion makes us fearless.

Monday, November 15, 2010

In Loving Memory

In Loving Memory of

Zena Rommett

who died on Wednesday November 10, 2010 at 1:26pm

Thank you for all your classes and work you did with me. You are loved and will be missed but never forgotten....

Sunday, November 14, 2010

2 years ago today

On Friday, November 14, 2008, I woke up and took the subway to Brooklyn. I walked into the BAX theater for my dance private. After an hour of working on beats and one of my favorite combos I was invited to dance with the greatest dance company in the world! It was the best day of my life! I cried the whole way home. I was SO happy!

The past two years have been the best and hardest of my life. Being a part of a company and having the opportunity to perform in NYC is the greatest feeling in the entire world. There is nothing better than dancing choreography I love on stage with others who share the same passion as I do. But through all the work and laughter and shows, I never thought two years later, here I'd be, still making my way back from an injury in May that required surgery and continues to require endless hours of PT. The past 6 months have been excruciating but as every day passes, I come one day closer to being healed and back where I belong...dancing with the greatest company in the entire world!

I am grateful for JKDC, for my director, for the company members and for all the love and support I get daily from these people. My life has been and continues to be forever changed because of them and I am eternally grateful.

"Right when it happened I right away got the mindset ok it's happened, it's done, I can't feel sorry for myself anymore because I've heard if you feel better about yourself and feel that you're gonna make it back it's gonna come faster" -Courtney Kupets

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Courage is

Things to ponder #43

the only one who can tell you
'you can't'
is you.
and you don't have to listen.
-nike-

Tough Love

Things to ponder #42

you're meant to soar
then crash to earth
then rise and soar again...
-Alfred Wainwright-

Friday, November 12, 2010

Things to ponder #41

"Victory is always possible for the person who refuses to stop fighting." -Napoleon Hill
I JUST DID A BACKWALKOVER!!! :)

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

dance COMEBACK!!!!!

says who

"don't let yourself talk you out of doing something great. jump in!!!!! you will be very glad you did :) LOVE" - Allison Case (November 2009)

Things to ponder #40

You have the power to make life-altering decisions each day when you get out of bed.
-Debbie Ford-

Negativity is useless!

DON’T TAKE ANYTHING PERSONALLY

Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.

“Whatever you think, whatever you feel, I know is your problem and not my problem. It is the way you see the world. It is nothing personal, because you are dealing with yourself, not with me. Others are going to have their own opinion according to their belief system, so nothing they think about me is really about me, but it is about them.

“If someone is not treating you with love and respect, it is a gift if they walk away from you. If that person doesn’t walk away, you will surely endure many years of suffering with him or her. Walking away may hurt for a while, but your heart will eventually heal. Then you can choose what you really want. You will find that you don’t need to trust others as much as you need to trust yourself to make the right choices.”

“As you make a habit of not taking anything personally, you won’t need to place your trust in what others do or say. You will only need to trust yourself to make responsible choices. You are never responsible for the actions of others; you are only responsible for you. When you truly understand this, and refuse to take things personally, you can hardly be hurt by the careless comments or actions of others.”

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Things to ponder #39

Woke up late today,
and I could still feel the sting of pain,
but I brushed my teeth anyway.
Got dressed through the mess, and
put a smile on my face.
I got a little bit stronger.
-Sara Evans-

Monday, November 8, 2010

"what if it's possible...."

I cannot wait for tomorrow. Another day of FLOOR BARRE and JK WARMUP! Today was good. I ran back and forth 10x. Ok, so it wasn't a professional run and was more of a hobbly snail run but still....gotta start from somewhere right? Continuing to do PT in my room and continuing to hope and have faith and believe that soon.......I will be back to 100% and back to my one true love....DANCE.
"what if it's possible...." oh yes, it is!