One year ago, this is what I wrote:
Life can be unpredictable...60 days ago I never imagined that this is where I'd be right now.... counting down the hours and minutes and seconds until it is time for my knee surgery. I don't really know what else to say right now except that I feel numb. I feel like time has been turned upside down and inside out. But I have faith that it is all going to be ok. I'm still scared. I'm still anxious. But for right now, I have to keep breathing and stay focused on this one moment because in all honesty, that's all any of us can do.
365 days later, here I sit, thankful that tomorrow I will not be hobbling to the hospital. I am so blessed and grateful that I don't need surgery tomorrow and that I'm healing. Instead, I will be spending this anniversary doing PT in my room in the morning, followed by Floor Barre and then my favorite Jazz class with JK. Then more dance in the evening.
Some things never change. I am still doing PT, I am still icing, and I am still thankful for every single day I get to walk into the studio and do what I love.
It's funny what can happen in a year. I am grateful for the lessons learned, and thankful for this second chance to do what I love most in this world....DANCE. Speaking of gratitude, I am grateful for the donor of my new ACL. I am also thankful for the 2 screws holding my new ACL in place. And I'm thankful for the doctor and assistants who got me back to my love.
from an article about gymnast Shawn Johnson who is making her gymnastics comeback after an ACL injury and time off:
Shawn Johnson said yes and she’s glad she did because they talked for an hour, and his words hit home: “You’ll never be what you were in 2008 because you’re not the same person.”
So don’t try. Instead of comparing yourself with that person, compare yourself with the gymnast who could barely perform a common release move on uneven bars a few months ago.
Compare yourself with the gymnast who couldn’t complete a full beam routine a few weeks ago.
Instead of thinking about how far you have to go,
remember how far you’ve come since stepping back in the gym.
remember how far you’ve come since stepping back in the gym.
“I was so far away from what an elite gymnast should be,” Johnson says, “but it really helped put things in perspective. I didn’t beat myself up so much after that. Every day I look at the progress I’ve made.”
