Friday, November 5, 2010

Smiles and Tears....

Wow! I just came across the article below and had to share.

While I'm on day 108 post op and feeling really good about my healing and recovery I will say I'm devastated I'm not 100% yet. But I know I have to keep my chin up and keep moving forward. I will continue to fight to get back to dance...I'm just saying, today was one of those days....where my heart was breaking because I still can't do what I love most in this world....DANCE.


‘Criminal Minds’ star Matthew Gray Gubler overcomes ‘legendary’ injury

CRIMINAL MINDS

Criminal Minds fans may have noticed star Matthew Gray Gubler, who plays Dr. Spencer Reid, brandishing a cane for most of this season. That isn’t a plot point — Gubler messed up his knee pretty bad doing press for the movie (500) Days of Summer, and he’s been on the long road to recovery ever since. But these days his knee is all good when hunting bad guys on the CBS show, which airs Wednesdays. Criminal Minds is going on a break for a few weeks after tonight’s episode, and returns on March 3 with an episode Gubler himself directed. I talked with the Las Vegas native about his knee injury for this past weekend’s Who’s News page, and read below for more details about how his recovery went and the creative ways that helped him get through it.

Photos courtesy of CBS


We’ve heard from lots of readers who are worried about your knee.
I’ve actually started to feel like a regular person again. I forget which knee I even hurt at times, which is pretty amazing considering it was about a seven-month adventure. I really did a good job. If this were 50 years ago, they would have amputated the leg, so I got really lucky. It was a bad, bad injury. I just got a little too overzealous on the dance floor and managed to pretty much do something that most knee surgeons have never even thought possible or seen in their lives.

What was the official diagnosis?
I just basically dismantled the knee to the point where they were talking about experimental surgeries in Norway. They weren’t even going to try what they did because they thought it might be a lost cause. But they screwed me back together, hoping it would work and thinking it wouldn’t, and luckily my body completely took back everything. A lot of times, cartilage won’t re-adhere because there’s not much blood in it, but it was a miracle that it worked. I ended up not losing anything at all – I’m pretty much back to normal.

CRIMINAL MINDSThat’s great. So you won’t have a permanent limp?
I have a limp now and I’ve been walking with a cane for a while, but it’s going away. I won’t be permanently affected by this, which is pretty odd. It’s really a miracle. They were like, “This is one of the worst injuries we’ve ever seen.” They were saying it was pretty legendary. It’s going to go down in a textbook somewhere for sure.

At what point were you able to look at it and see it as “legendary”?
Moment one. The minute it happened, I knew it was pretty spectacular. I realized you could go one of two ways: I could take in the horrible reality, or realize that I’m lucky it wasn’t my right leg, because at least I can drive. Bad things happen – it’s how you deal with it is what makes it what it is. It made me a lot stronger and a lot more thankful for my leg. I really won in this situation.

When you showed back up to film Criminal Minds, did they try to write the injury into the show?
It was funny, they didn’t really seem to believe me. [Laughs] No one believes I could have done what I did. I think to the day that people at Criminal Minds have honestly no understanding of what kind of injury it was. They think it was just some sort of simple thing – people have knee problems, but again, if this were 40 or 50 years ago, I’d just have no leg. It was really freaking bad. And no one could really say either because it’s never been done before, so no one knew what the protocol was for rehab. They basically had no plan to follow because it was sort of a unique injury. I thought I was going to be out for four episodes on crutches, and it ended up being like 12. It was a pretty crazy thing. I had to have three surgeries. It’s a little hard to focus. It made the season incredibly tough just because when you’re in a constant state of mind-numbing pain, it’s not the easiest to chase criminals. But it made it good, and it was all for the best.

Playing Spencer Reid has been your signature role thus far in your career.
It was my first acting job, pretty much. I’m really lucky – I love the people I work with, I love the character, I love hunting criminals. It’s been a real adventure, and the knee only made it more fun. Even this injury has changed him and it makes my job a lot more fun because I get to see the progression of a human, as opposed to just Sisyphus pushing a rock up the hill or something. I know some people don’t like [Reid] – in the first couple of years, he was much more naive and innocent, he got kidnapped and a lot of terrible things happened to him that changed him for the better, and it makes him more fun to play.

You sketch drawings for your website, and you’re pretty active on Twitter. Do you like maintaining these creative outlets?
I’m a big fan of the classic showmen –
P.T. Barnum, Walt Disney and people that never stopped entertaining. Actors I think have a bit of a problem in that they have to be picked to perform, which is what makes a lot of actors crazy in a way. They’re on the shelf waiting for someone to notice them, but I’ve never considered myself an actor in that regard because every day, whether two people see what I do or 18 million, I’m trying to do something to entertain. It’s great with the Internet and Twitter and everything, because I’m happy just doing stuff for my friends, but my network has grown and I have a lot of awesome fans who will watch dumb YouTube videos that I’ll make.

How much did those help you right after hurting your knee?
Oh yeah, that became a big push. The minute I hurt my knee, I started making T-shirts and stuffed animals and buttons, and I finally started writing this children’s book I’ve been working on. When you can’t move, you start definitely resorting to a little different avenues of getting stuff done. It was incredibly helpful on that regard.

Are you going to be worried about dancing ever again?
I’m on very strict instructions not to do anything until October of 2010. I can’t really do anything other than walk, so no running or dancing. I’m sure the show won’t believe me when I say that. They really have no understanding. They’ve called my doctor, and I think they think my doctor is like a paid actor who’s lying to them.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

twirl twirl chaine chaine

"The first step before anyone else in the world believes it is that you have to believe it."

-Will Smith-


Oh yes! It was definitely "Thursday funday" at Steps! Today was day 2 of FLOOR BARRE AND JK WARMUP in studio 5 and another day closer to THE DANCE! LiL Knee is getting stronger every day! I can't wait to be able to jump and spin and fly around the room....but not yet.....we did attempt a first position grande plie at the bar and it went quite well! And devs...well, what can I say...I have a new love for them...


I am so grateful for all the people helping me get back to THE DANCE! I can't wait to be back on that stage doing what I love most in this world. I also can't wait to be able to stay in studio 5 for a full out JK class....soon....very very soon.... until then, I shall twirl twirl chaine chaine in my dreams until it becomes reality.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

another day


"...The other, equally important lesson is that healing and rest is as important a pursuit as anything else in life. I needed to learn to dive headfirst into healing, to get really good at resting—and that doing nothing can be a profound endeavor. I resolve to be more mindful and aware—to listen more to the messages from my body and my heart. And to become a champion of rest..."-Mariska Hargitay



It's day 106 post op and I'm anxiously awaiting tomorrow! I can't wait to do Floor Barre and JK Warm Up again! I know I'm not 100% healed but I'm so close! So, now it's time to do some PT, ice my knee, watch some TV and sleep...for tomorrow brings another day closer to being healed, another day to work to get back to where I was before all this madness happened...and a day to learn more.

Oh, and p.s. I can now do bridge kickovers off the bed!!!! Next step, backwalkovers :)

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

RIP Shannon Tavarez

This little 11 year old angel continues to give me strength. Shannon never gave up and was talented beyond her 11 years. You will never be forgotten. Love and prayers to the Tavarez and Lion King Family. xoxo

BroadwayWorld.com has learned the sad news that, 11 year old Shannon Tavarez who received an umbilical-cord transplant in late August to combat her acute myeloid leukemia has passed away. The soprano from Queens recently played Young Nala in The Lion King on Broadway.

Serving as an alternative to a bone-marrow transplant, Shannon received the umbilical-cord blood from an anonymous donor, as doctors were unable to find a bone marrow match. Since her diagnosis last spring, she had been through extensive chemotherapy and had spent most of her days and nights in the children's ward of a hospital in New York. She has recently been in a children's ICU struggling to stabilize.

Shannon got the role of Young Nala after her first open audition at the Apollo Theater in Harlem. She attended Harlem School of the Arts for vocals and piano from the age of 3. Her coach was the person who encouraged her to audition. She made her Broadway debut in September of 2009, and she played four of eight shows a week until April when her symptoms began.

Our thoughts and prayers go out to Shannon's friends, family and all who knew and loved her.

And, to further Shannon's mission and Shannon's family's devotion to recruiting donors, click here to find out about GetSwabbed.org.

LiL Knee RAWKED today!

Oh yeah! LiL Knee has screws ------>

Last night I felt like a little kid anxiously awaiting her first day of school! I was so excited that I woke myself up at 1am thinking it was time to get up for dance! I almost jumped out of bed with excitement until I realized what time it really was....so back to sleep I went, dreaming of today.

Then I woke up! YAY!!! First day back at STEPS!!! Took floor barre and then JK's warmup! I'm so excited to be back to a semi normal dance schedule! I might not be 100% yet but oh so close! I can see the DANCE at the end of the tunnel! I can't wait to be able to make it through an entire JK class, but in the meantime, I will be at every floor barre and JK warmup until that happens!

Every day I continue with my PT and am trying to run little by little. Right now it still looks like a limpy power walk but I'll get there. Small steps....small hops....lead to bigger ones! :)
I will say that day 105 post op has been one of the best and I can't wait to do it all over again on Thursday!

Things to ponder #35

‎"We have two options, medically and emotionally: give up or

FIGHT LIKE HELL"

-Lance Armstrong-

Monday, November 1, 2010

WHOOOOOHOOOO!!!!!!


<---- oh hell yeah! Full stretch is back!!!! WHOO HOOO!!!!


It's day 104 post op and I went to the ortho surgeon at 8:30am. They said for someone who hasn't had regular PT 3x a week since surgery, I'm above and beyond where I should be right now. Apparently I'm not supposed to have full range of motion yet but I've had it for about a month now...and the strength of my quad is above where it should be at this point. And for the BEST NEWS ever....tomorrow I get to start Floor Barre and JK's warm up! Now, I know that's not a lot, but it's a lot more than where I was last week! FINALLY, back to my regular dance routine...well half of it anyways. I'm still not allowed to jump full out or turn but SOON! I am, however, allowed to start running....so my first run will be back to STEPS! LOOK OUT DANCE WORLD!!! I'M COMING BACK!!!!


"...if you feel better about yourself and feel that you're

gonna make it back it's gonna come faster..."

-Courtney Kupets-