Surrender

This is one of the main reasons I got my "surrender" tattoo....love this song....love Lisa...soooo inspiring...this song has gotten me through so many things and continues to motivate and inspire me daily....xoxo

A Day of Pondering....

"Best practice for health and healing: Every morning, close your eyes and see light pouring through your body."

-Marianne Williamson

"Whatever inspires you is an aspect of yourself. Any desire of the heart exists to support you in discovering and manifesting it."

-Debbie Ford

"If you have the aspiration to be something, it's because you have the potential to manifest what you are seeing."

-Debbie Ford

"Feel gratitude every day for what we have. What are you most grateful for?"

-Debbie Ford

"When was the last time you gave yourself a break?"

-Debbie Ford

"What if in breaking free of your own denial you could stop someone from victimizing another? Then would you do something?"

-Debbie Ford

"When you're thinking about God, you're not thinking about your problems."

-Debbie Ford

Day 11

HAPPY NATIONAL DANCE DAY!!!!

Have you danced today? Come on....I did a crutch dance :) now it's your turn!

And, I got a smaller brace! Yay! It fits soooo much better!

Ok back to more PT....

I can't sleep...

It is 1:40 a.m. and I can't sleep. I think it's because I upped my PT and am now sore and achy, not to mention the fun burning sensation. I've been having some issues with my brace and thankfully I'm getting a smaller one FedEx-ed to me tomorrow so that should help. Because the brace is too big it is digging into my steri-strips which is NOT fun. The PT is still extremely difficult but I'm slowly starting to be able to bend it further each day. I was able to bus around the UWS and run some errands today....just took about 3 times as long as it used to take. The one thing about being in a huge brace and on crutches is that everyone has something to say to you. It was like I was invisible before but now everyone sees me. Strange...

As always, I'm trying to find the beauty in everything around me. Being forced to move slower and unable to wear my ipod and use my phone as I walk, there is so much more I see now. Just walking down the street, I notice everything - people, buildings, cars, trees, the sky...there is beauty all around us, we are just usually in too big a hurry to notice it.

For now, I am going to lay here and watch tv until I hopefully fall asleep. Technically it is Day 11 and today is also NATIONAL DANCE DAY (July 31st). Go out and dance your heart out today. I will be doing a fabulous dance on crutches....I will be dancing full out in my dreams :) Have a great night!

LOVE

Things to ponder #15

"All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better" -Ralph Waldo Emerson

Things to ponder #14

"The world needs you. We need you to give up your excuses and do your part in the world. Notice someone who can use your help." -Debbie Ford

Day 9 of healing...

The doctor said I was doing great but wants even more PT done to get my mobility back to 100+ asap. They changed all the steri strips....that only burned A LOT but the wounds don't even look bad. It looks like I have a lame superficial wound. I have a few screws in my tibia and femur as well as something called bone plugs and of course my cadaver ACL!

They unlocked my brace and made it really tight since it's too big on me but it's bendable now - though I am a lot slower than I was with it straight. (The brace has been slipping around so the surgical company is going to FedEx me a smaller one hopefully tomorrow)

Then got an xray so they can see the screws etc...you should see the pictures!

Ooh and they showed me pics of my actual surgery!!!!! Sooooo cool! The top of my tibia is purple from being bruised! Well at least it's my favorite color :) and they shaved off little pieces of the cartilage to smooth it out (but that is from old injuries).

The physical therapy right now is torturous! I can't begin to tell you how painful it is to bend my knee but it will get easier. Today was a rough one but it will get better! I got my eye at the end of the tunnel....DANCE! Love ya much!

LiL Knee Photos